today my sculpture which i loved got thrashed at critique. i'll bounce back up eventually but, fuck.

it didn't get much better, printing today was a nightmare. the film place has temporarily misplaced my square format film, but at least i have my 35mm to work with. i went to the dark room to work this afternoon; this afternoon, this beautiful spring afternoon, i was in the dark in the lab in the metal and fluorescent light instead of out there ( Read more... )

had a mild panic attack, attempted to remedy by dragging julio to the bookstore on prince street and buying books and cards, then more vietnamese food and peppermint chocolate milk. am now feeling slightly better but still the melancholy of a solitary existence CUTS LIKE A KNIFE ( Read more... )

so it's been ridiculously long since i last posted anything of substance, anything that says i'm alive (and at this point i give up moving mz fingers to the strange place that 'y' is at because this viennese computer is intent on reading mz 'y' as a 'z', it's not that i don't love zou enough but i am tired and so allowed to do so ( Read more... )

so this week hasn't been all that great ( Read more... )

late nights
early mornings
long days.

:|

WE HATE THIS THING CALLED FEELINGS. 

i sleep at 3.30 one day and the next day i crumble and die. ):

lately, stress coming from many parts of life, very difficult to deal. don't know how to face things now. obs next week...  

every time i think about work my mood takes a big dip. this will teach me never to over-commit. ugh. life has been shit for the past few days because of various reasons. talking about it will just make me more bushuang, so i'm not going to bother.

in other news, secko has sneakily/skilfully got me hooked on skins DD: i was just saying how if the ( Read more... )

I BOUGHT A PAIR OF BEAUTIFUL EARRINGS TODAY

AND THEN DROPPED ONE HALF OF IT DOWN THE SINK.